"The universe will expand, and it will collapse back on itself, then will expand again. It will repeat this process forever. What you don't know is that when the universe expands again, everything will be as it is now. Whatever mistakes you make this time around, you will live through on your next pass. Every mistake you make, you will live through again, and again, forever. So my advice to you is to get it right this time around. Because this time is all you have."

how's that for a trippy thought? from the movie k pax...

well, muskegon, somehow you did it to me: you made me realize that i'll actually miss you when i'm gone. i'll miss driving around by the lake and sticking my toes in the sand, i'll miss meditating with the only sound being that of the waves three feet away. i'll miss driving through the ghetto, and hearing rap music thumpin from a caddy with spinners driving by. i'll miss driving to north muskegon and finding caleb at the park across the street, and i'll miss the endless driving around looking for weed with random peoples. i'll miss running into people in random places, and then going and hanging out witht them. i'll miss lifeguarding at the Y for the ghetto kids, and screwing around with james. i'll miss teaching my squishies (but hopefully, will teach MORE in a2! a2 squishies!) and i'll miss 8 million other tiny things...

but we just keep moving on and on and on and i'll be happy to wake up in bed with my boy (he's switching rooms so we get that big futon!! rock!!) and know that i'll be able to come back from work/class/whatever and sit on the porch with peoples and then make love before we go to sleep... we just keep moving on and on, always trying to find the beautiful in each place we're at. i'll be happy walking barefoot around ann arbor, being cool with my dreadies and not having white redneck chicks ask me why i have them, and what exactly... are they? i'll be happy to wander in and out of the 10 million bookstores there, drowning in that smell of... book and having a whole new area to shoplift from!! i'll be happy to see that punk/goth/cool ass chick who lives in my room now... somehow i think she might become something akin to what kendra was for me. maybe. who knows. i'll be happy for 8 million other things....

and in 9 months, i shall fall in love with either an ocean or some mountains... seattle or vail, seattle or vail, seattle or vail... the question is huge, but it'll play itself out in time.